So much growth this year...I have learned I am capable of giving unconditional love.
Deconstruction – Maybe I am capable of being love
Tag: self-love
What to remember on a not so good day…
These past eight weeks I have been part of an online course called Soul Shift Lift hosted and taught by Rachel Macy Stafford, otherwise known as the Hands Free Mama. She is a best selling author and formal special education teacher. Her class has been uplifting, life changing and eye opening in so many ways. This class will continue to teach me things for the rest of my life if I continue to pay attention and be present...
Separate
It is odd that we have this new rule about being six feet apart. It is surreal and yet somehow so familiar. I think I have been six feet apart from people all my life. Was my feeling of distance from other that spawned my feeling of being unworthy of connection? Or were my differences [...]
When the Light Goes Out
His natural, thin-lipped, wide-mouth grin carried so much sunshiny warmth I felt like I had just been placed center stage; in the spotlight. His shoulders were broad, yet slender and tilted forward in a slight hunch. The charcoal gray T-shirt that hung loose on his frame was light and the fabric seemed sheer and soft. [...]
safe inside
Today during SIP I choose gratitude...
my head is getting the best of me
"Remember always that the quiet girl who wanted to put good into the world, the one who is shy and scared, but full of faith; she is who you are. That girl is worth something. She has value. Keep trying to find her and love her so that she won't feel so lost, so lonely. [...]
Inside Voice # 1
Here is what has been going on in my head and at our house during the shelter in place...
Contently Complete with My Contradictions
I would rather be comfortable than fashionable. Even though I feel prettier with makeup on the days I don't wear it, I am happier. I chose to wear leggings over jeans. Simple is better. Tennis shoes over heels any day. Despite being able to present in front of large groups of people, it is way [...]
Open Letter 2020
Sharing my heart here is always therapy. It helps me grow. This open letter is no different. It is a reminder of who I am, where I have been and who I want to become.
Flipping the Questions: Opening Up to be Unapologetically Me
For weeks, okay months, I have struggled with this deep gut feeling. It sits in the pit of my stomach and reaches up to my heart, where it rests. I call it loneliness, it feels like emptiness. A hollowness in my soul that no one will ever see me; no one will ever connect with [...]
Surrender – there is no answer key to life
"When am I going to die?" "When is __________ going to die?" "Should I have another baby?" "Am I going to have another baby?" "Are we moving?" "Should we move?" "Should I be married to my husband?" "I am thinking of switching careers; is it the right thing to do?" These questions are none of [...]
What happened when I chose faith over fear
Recently I was asked to speak at event organized by one of my favorite business owners, Ahnna Goossen. She owns Yoga Bella and the Acupuncture and Herbal Clinic in Gilroy. The evening was a beautiful event that included Qi Gong instruction (there is a class each week at Yoga Bella) and sound healing with the [...]
Fissures and Finding Truth
We are not the sum of our mistakes or what has happened to us...we are so much more. Sometimes we may forget we are worthy but we can always be led back to the truth of how much we matter.
Secrets, Lies and Bossy Bossers
I tell people I am a recovering perfectionist. Quintessential oldest child, I wanted to set the example, follow the rules, make more rules to follow, and do it all with ease and perfection. People pleasing was how I thought you were supposed to live your life. Rules are easy. There are clear boundaries you have [...]
An open letter to myself…
The rain came down yesterday. Puddles litter the ground and this afternoon's storm is imminent. In fact, the call came through while I was at breakfast with a friend that all after school meetings and activities are cancelled, except high school athletics. So I am still waiting to hear from my son's soccer coach if [...]