Dark skies matched my mood on my walk today. The sadness in my heart threatened to cast me into a river of despair. I was close to sinking deep under the surface. Our family has lived some of our most challenging days this past month. I know tragedy triggered the chasm that opened up and [...]
Do you ever pray and wonder if you're heard? Do you ever look out at the world and wonder what kind of God created humans who can hurt one another the way we do? It doesn't surprise me that ancient Greeks thought multiple gods were warring with one another and using humans to their folly [...]
Sharing my heart here is always therapy. It helps me grow. This open letter is no different. It is a reminder of who I am, where I have been and who I want to become.
We are not the sum of our mistakes or what has happened to us…we are so much more. Sometimes we may forget we are worthy but we can always be led back to the truth of how much we matter.
1. Do not write about how depression feels, but if you forget to take that advice and do it anyway… Be ready that it could have the opposite effect of what you intended. If you write about how depression feels in an effort to let people see inside of you be ready for some people to […]
Depression feels like a long, dark tunnel with too little breathing room, too much discomfort and an impossible journey ahead. Luckily for me there is always a pinhole of light at the end of my tunnel. Still I become wrapped in a blanket of despair; choking on my own illogical self-hatred, all the while struggling […]
Has this first week of May been a doosey for you, too? Lots of weird little things popping into your day. Running into strange occurrences while you are out and about? It just has been an odd little week, but it got me thinking about my April Lessons and what I should be learning in this […]
“You are only given one little spark of madness. You mustn’t lose it.” – Robin WilliamsEven as I type this fear grips me, I am breaking out in a sweat and my fingers shake. Getting out of bed this week has been harder than it’s been in three months. The horror that depression won this week […]
“I have to admit, I found you rather intimidating when I first met you. You just seemed like you had it all together: career, four great kids, good marriage.” My friend of two years relays to me over coffee. That image, the one people see of me is so far from what resides deep under […]
I lose my voice from time to time, because I start over thinking things. I have been trying to make this blog a better place for readers to stop. I want this blog to mean something to someone else; to have purpose and so I have been really struggling with the purpose of this blog. […]
I have written a great deal about happy; about how living out loud has helped me find joy. But I want to make sure that I also talk about the dark days – the dark days are the days that my depression still gets the better of me – the days I feel like I […]
I am my own worst enemy. I am definitely not an expert on depression, but I think that when you suffer from depression your own brain becomes your worst enemy; it just never stops analyzing and going through how you could do things differently or better. It never stops trying to drag you down. So […]