This time of year has me craving the simple things. Baking sweet treats to share with those I love. A simple string of Christmas lights in a quiet, dark room. Playing games around the table and nights driving around looking at all the neighborhoods lit up. I know this is an incredibly difficult time of [...]
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Be Love
I have started therapy once a week. 9 AM on Mondays has become a sacred space and time I don’t want to miss. There is headway being made. If you have ever done therapy and really wanted it to work, you have to do the work. Therapy is not for the faint of heart. When [...]
Silly ideas and ghost hugs
This may be a silly idea, but this silly idea has been swirling around in my head so much so, it woke me up this morning and it started writing itself in my head. So here I am at my computer typing it out to you, dear reader, whoever and wherever you may be. I [...]
Self worth, lunch dates, sounding selfish and writing any way…
When did we start measuring ourselves? Sizing up our worth? Is it a curse of the human condition? Some humans can live content, settled into a comfortable rhythm with confidence to spare. While others stare into their worth like it's some sort of abyss. I am the second, obviously. I don't know about you, but [...]
Ready to receive: Ramblings inside my head
Recently a friend stopped me and asked, "How does it work?" I gave the best answer I could, but I don't know how it works. The it my friend was referring to was talking to spirits. This question shook me to my core because the friend who asked, his brother is dead and that is [...]
I wonder what’s next?
Right now, in this very moment, I don't know what's next. And these days as graduation nears, I am living moment to moment. Each breath feels held. Remember bringing home your first baby? The awe, the wonder, the realization you were responsible for another human life. Remember your child's first day away from you? Leaving [...]
Strangers & parking cars – learning how to let our light shine
Sometimes I wonder if I would survive better with my heart hardened in this world. Whether it is unprovoked war, pandemic, death, famine, or hate focused on the vulnerable the news seems to spew despair in some form or the other on a daily basis. Well, I am not sure we should even call it […]
Sometimes hope is packaged in a memory
Dark skies matched my mood on my walk today. The sadness in my heart threatened to cast me into a river of despair. I was close to sinking deep under the surface. Our family has lived some of our most challenging days this past month. I know tragedy triggered the chasm that opened up and […]
Deconstruction – Maybe I am capable of being love
So much growth this year…I have learned I am capable of giving unconditional love.
What I have learned about heaven so far…part 4
When I was about four, my grandmother took me to church with her. I remember walking up to the building as everyone entered. You had to park on the lot below the church. On the outside, it seemed enormous. The doors were so big, and wide I hadn’t ever seen a house with doors that […]
The Baggage of Expectations
Do you ever pray and wonder if you're heard? Do you ever look out at the world and wonder what kind of God created humans who can hurt one another the way we do? It doesn't surprise me that ancient Greeks thought multiple gods were warring with one another and using humans to their folly [...]
Separate
It is odd that we have this new rule about being six feet apart. It is surreal and yet somehow so familiar. I think I have been six feet apart from people all my life. Was my feeling of distance from other that spawned my feeling of being unworthy of connection? Or were my differences […]
When the Light Goes Out
His natural, thin-lipped, wide-mouth grin carried so much sunshiny warmth I felt like I had just been placed center stage; in the spotlight. His shoulders were broad, yet slender and tilted forward in a slight hunch. The charcoal gray T-shirt that hung loose on his frame was light and the fabric seemed sheer and soft. […]
Unhinged
Have you ever felt that how you were wired was somehow wonky, and you were never going to understand or fit the mold that you were supposed to? These words were written fourteen months ago and have sat and sat, but they plague my heart and head. Maybe unleashing them here will bring more clarity…maybe.
safe inside
Today during SIP I choose gratitude…