Spiritual Medium & Author
Sometimes I wonder if I would survive better with my heart hardened in this world. Whether it is unprovoked war, pandemic, death, famine, or hate focused on the vulnerable the news seems to spew despair in some form or the other on a daily basis. Well, I am not sure we should even call it [...]
It is odd that we have this new rule about being six feet apart. It is surreal and yet somehow so familiar. I think I have been six feet apart from people all my life. Was my feeling of distance from other that spawned my feeling of being unworthy of connection? Or were my differences [...]
Today during SIP I choose gratitude...
The rain came down yesterday. Puddles litter the ground and this afternoon's storm is imminent. In fact, the call came through while I was at breakfast with a friend that all after school meetings and activities are cancelled, except high school athletics. So I am still waiting to hear from my son's soccer coach if [...]
** Special note: I write this with the intent and experience of my parenting journey. In no way is it meant to be hurtful to those families who have had severe and devastating struggles. Those of my friends that have endured this, my heart goes out to you all. Each and everyone. I know the [...]
Several years ago I started to disarm myself. Piece by piece I set down my armor. I came out of hiding and decided in order to live fully I must be seen fully. That is why I started this blog and even named it "afourytale" - a fairy tale; four kids - a..four..ytale...get it. I [...]
My heart is heavy tonight as I write my life lessons post for late June/half way through July, but I still felt this need to write so here I am. I am going to start with the heavy. We need to pray people... France, Dallas, Baton Rouge, the whole globe. We need to take a [...]
Kintsugi is the centuries old Japanese art of repairing broken pottery with gold. My heart was shattered by autism on July 25, 2011. “Your son’s delays are consistent with autism spectrum disorder, and we recommend you enroll him immediately in our intensive in-home autism preschool program.” That word. Autism. Six letters punched me in my [...]
When our loved ones move on to heaven our human hearts want the world to stop. There is a need for everything to be frozen and covered with ash gray quiet. Forward movement seems so unbefitting when we are mourning loss. We yearn for a blanket of stillness to cover the globe and keep us isolated while we [...]
Depression feels like a long, dark tunnel with too little breathing room, too much discomfort and an impossible journey ahead. Luckily for me there is always a pinhole of light at the end of my tunnel. Still I become wrapped in a blanket of despair; choking on my own illogical self-hatred, all the while struggling [...]
July is a quartet of birthdays for our family. All the boys are July. And tomorrow the last July birthday takes place. It is tomorrow that I will have been a mother for a decade plus one. My oldest is aging at what I feel like is warp speed. I have just started reading the [...]
"To get to experience another day and have the health to dream of the opportunity for more days is a rich and indulgent luxury." Over three decades ago on a sunny September morning I skipped into kindergarten. The carpet was a deep red contrasted by the stark white and gray flecked tile that rimmed most [...]
Recently at a therapy appointment, it came up that my 11th wedding anniversary was coming up. My therapist congratulated me and then asked, "Wow that is a little over a decade, is there anything you would do differently in those 11 years?" I thought for a moment, because that is what you are supposed to [...]
Three years and a few months ago I went in for an ultrasound and it confirmed what I already thought - I was having twins. We were excited but also scared and if anyone gave me two of the same outfit I couldn't hold them both at once without starting to panic a bit. I [...]
I usually start in the middle and then work my way back to the beginning, and that is what I did here, too. I called my blog afourytale and then didn't really explain why. My friends and family that read know that the four part is due to my four kiddos and then there is the quote that [...]