So much growth this year...I have learned I am capable of giving unconditional love.
Deconstruction – Maybe I am capable of being love
Category: My thoughts on mommyhood
What to remember on a not so good day…
These past eight weeks I have been part of an online course called Soul Shift Lift hosted and taught by Rachel Macy Stafford, otherwise known as the Hands Free Mama. She is a best selling author and formal special education teacher. Her class has been uplifting, life changing and eye opening in so many ways. This class will continue to teach me things for the rest of my life if I continue to pay attention and be present...
The Baggage of Expectations
Do you ever pray and wonder if you're heard? Do you ever look out at the world and wonder what kind of God created humans who can hurt one another the way we do? It doesn't surprise me that ancient Greeks thought multiple gods were warring with one another and using humans to their folly [...]
Separate
It is odd that we have this new rule about being six feet apart. It is surreal and yet somehow so familiar. I think I have been six feet apart from people all my life. Was my feeling of distance from other that spawned my feeling of being unworthy of connection? Or were my differences […]
Unhinged
Have you ever felt that how you were wired was somehow wonky, and you were never going to understand or fit the mold that you were supposed to? These words were written fourteen months ago and have sat and sat, but they plague my heart and head. Maybe unleashing them here will bring more clarity…maybe.
safe inside
Today during SIP I choose gratitude…
my head is getting the best of me
“Remember always that the quiet girl who wanted to put good into the world, the one who is shy and scared, but full of faith; she is who you are. That girl is worth something. She has value. Keep trying to find her and love her so that she won’t feel so lost, so lonely. […]
Inside Voice # 1
Here is what has been going on in my head and at our house during the shelter in place…
Finding Answers in the Redwoods: A Perspective on Grief
Lately, I have been praying a great deal about what I should be writing about. I know I haven’t been corresponding to you all as frequently as I should. Maybe you haven’t even missed it. I guess I worry about that too much. If there is an audience. That they dwindle or are bored of […]
Contently Complete with My Contradictions
I would rather be comfortable than fashionable. Even though I feel prettier with makeup on the days I don’t wear it, I am happier. I chose to wear leggings over jeans. Simple is better. Tennis shoes over heels any day. Despite being able to present in front of large groups of people, it is way […]
Open Letter 2020
Sharing my heart here is always therapy. It helps me grow. This open letter is no different. It is a reminder of who I am, where I have been and who I want to become.
It isn’t just our town.
Before I was born, Ted Bundy killed Deborah Kent. My dad knew her and her family. They always kept the porch light on for her. Years and years, they kept that light on for her waiting for her to come home. She never did. I know when I heard this as a little kid, I […]
Surrender – there is no answer key to life
“When am I going to die?” “When is __________ going to die?” “Should I have another baby?” “Am I going to have another baby?” “Are we moving?” “Should we move?” “Should I be married to my husband?” “I am thinking of switching careers; is it the right thing to do?” These questions are none of […]
What happened when I chose faith over fear
Recently I was asked to speak at event organized by one of my favorite business owners, Ahnna Goossen. She owns Yoga Bella and the Acupuncture and Herbal Clinic in Gilroy. The evening was a beautiful event that included Qi Gong instruction (there is a class each week at Yoga Bella) and sound healing with the […]
Fissures and Finding Truth
We are not the sum of our mistakes or what has happened to us…we are so much more. Sometimes we may forget we are worthy but we can always be led back to the truth of how much we matter.