Yes, yesterday I talked about the kindness revolution starting within all of us and today I am writing a blog titled Crabby Patty; the irony is not lost on me. Promise. No crossies.
There is just this itty bit of crabbiness that is lingering in me.
Maybe it’s because we can’t get out the door on time for school.
Maybe it’s literally hearing four “moms” at once every two minutes for 6 hours a day.
Maybe it’s that I am not exercising – and don’t get started with judgment on that one. I judge myself enough for a thousand judgements.
Maybe it’s the smiling happy moms that join together at school pick up and greet each other excitedly while I stand off by myself. I know I can join in. Come on you want to be the one that people walk up and say hi to, too. You don’t always want to initiate the contact, either.
Maybe it’s getting removed from the FedEx account at work and wondering if is this the beginning of the end for my job.
Maybe it is the messy playroom or the fact that for every one thing I clean up another seven things take its place. For the love of God, this is non-stop.
Maybe it’s the 23 piles of laundry every single week without fail. Even on vacation.
Maybe it’s spending too much time on social media and detached from real people.
Maybe it’s a lack of sleep.
Maybe it’s because my reading last night didn’t go as well as I wanted. And to top it off she was the sweetest client ever on the planet. She had the nicest things to say about me and I couldn’t give her what she expected.
Maybe it’s that I want to choose happiness and I am mostly happy, but there is just this nagging crabbiness and I don’t know what the heck is causing it.
Does this ever happen to you?
I feel it in my body. My shoulders won’t loosen and my jaw stays tight.
My husband is seeing it. He is being super extra nice and making a real effort to let me know I am appreciated. It is sweet and he is sweet. But I still feel crabby.
Thank goodness Winter Break is next week and I am taking time off, too. Maybe that is it. Maybe we all just need a little bit of a break.
Maybe it is the feeling that something big is coming and the anticipation waiting for it is driving me crazy.
Maybe it is because of a million things. Or maybe it is just a crabby patty kind of day.
Until next time – and hopefully the crabby patties will have lifted.