You are what you believe…

For the last week or so I have been in a rut. I had forgotten that happiness is a choice and that choice is not always easy.

lazy

sadness

solitude

frustration

anger

yelling

hiding

ignoring

withdrawal

excuses

ALL EASY!

exercise

connection

being present

happiness

friendship

compassion

forgiveness

understanding

ALL HARD THINGS!

And by hard I mean those things take time, attention, awareness and action. You are what you believe.

For the past few weeks I have been HUNGRY all the time. I just can’t eat enough; never full. That’s not a feeling I have often. But I was also convinced that I was a no good loser who would never achieve success and wasn’t worth the space I take up on the planet. It took a cutie patootie to remind me to…

But during the last week, I would just look in the mirror in complete disgust with myself. Telling myself how hideous I was. But here;s the thing…I am never going to be Jennifer Anniston on the outside; I am much more of a girl next door like Topanga with thinner lips.

But here is the thing I have forgotten and then just remembered; I am FREAKING gorgeous on the inside! The whole point of being authentic is to be able to let my “insideness” shine through.

My mistake this past week or so is that I have let the disgust I felt about myself show through lately, but unfortunately in an extra ten pounds of extra weight (UGH!). I need to remember that I am kind to others, hard-working, patient, brave (even though I forget half the stuff I post here and when I talk to people and they bring up stuff; I am like what?! Oh yeah, that was in my blog).

Anyway, my point is we are all FREAKING gorgeous on the inside. I see people’s souls all day long. I have only ever met a handful of ugly people; and they only reason I would consider them to be un-beautiful is because of who they are on the inside.

I am worth the space I take up on the planet and so are you. We are all meant for greatness; each and every one of us.

Trying to let my “insideness” shine through and yes I wrote this while my kids were watching THE LEGO MOVIE in the background,

M