For the last week or so I have been in a rut. I had forgotten that happiness is a choice and that choice is not always easy.
lazy
sadness
solitude
frustration
anger
yelling
hiding
ignoring
withdrawal
excuses
ALL EASY!
exercise
connection
being present
happiness
friendship
compassion
forgiveness
understanding
ALL HARD THINGS!
And by hard I mean those things take time, attention, awareness and action. You are what you believe.
For the past few weeks I have been HUNGRY all the time. I just can’t eat enough; never full. That’s not a feeling I have often. But I was also convinced that I was a no good loser who would never achieve success and wasn’t worth the space I take up on the planet. It took a cutie patootie to remind me to…
But during the last week, I would just look in the mirror in complete disgust with myself. Telling myself how hideous I was. But here;s the thing…I am never going to be Jennifer Anniston on the outside; I am much more of a girl next door like Topanga with thinner lips.
But here is the thing I have forgotten and then just remembered; I am FREAKING gorgeous on the inside! The whole point of being authentic is to be able to let my “insideness” shine through.
My mistake this past week or so is that I have let the disgust I felt about myself show through lately, but unfortunately in an extra ten pounds of extra weight (UGH!). I need to remember that I am kind to others, hard-working, patient, brave (even though I forget half the stuff I post here and when I talk to people and they bring up stuff; I am like what?! Oh yeah, that was in my blog).
Anyway, my point is we are all FREAKING gorgeous on the inside. I see people’s souls all day long. I have only ever met a handful of ugly people; and they only reason I would consider them to be un-beautiful is because of who they are on the inside.
I am worth the space I take up on the planet and so are you. We are all meant for greatness; each and every one of us.
Trying to let my “insideness” shine through and yes I wrote this while my kids were watching THE LEGO MOVIE in the background,
M
We love you Michelle. I love you Michelle. We need you Michelle. I need you. We count on you Michelle. I count on you to lead my grandchildren to be beautiful people like you. They are. You are doing a fantastic job Michelle. You are beautiful on the inside and the outside. You are special. More special than you will ever know. Believe in you. We do. I do.
Love you tons! Thank you for all of your support. I appreciate all you do for me, for us.